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Perfection is the biggest lie we tell ourselves

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Hello all! The whole point of this blog is to be straightforward, and really to get my thoughts out into the universe. I want to be as candid with people, but mostly myself. I have been MIA for a couple weeks. I''m here to explain myself, also I wanted to take some time to get back into the swing of things. Well first a foremost I got engaged! Honestly, it was the greatest moment I have ever experienced. Let me tell you why though as if the engagement was not enough, I realized how much my life has changed since I started devoting time to loving myself. I began this journey a couple years ago, with every intention on I am going to lose this weight and all my problems will disappear. Well... we all know how that goes. There I was, 116 lbs smaller than my heaviest weight, and still feeling like I was that 260ish pound girl. I had always believed that if I lost all this weight, I would find someone that loves me, and have my happily ever after. Honestly, I did it for the wrong...

Top 5: Face, Body and Beauty Edition

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Hey friends! I am looking at ways to lighten up my posts, and share things with people that read my posts. I would love to write deep things all the time, but sometimes I feel like I can be a bit overwhelming so this post is all about things I love, beauty things I love!!! I wanted to let you know that I have not been paid to talk about these topics, honestly, I love reviewing things and like to share my favorite things with those I love. So shall we begin? 5. CeraVe Moisturizing Cream - Honestly I dont know where to begin with this. I have had a love hate relationship with this product for a few years. Let me explain why... This product is so creamy, and thick that in the summer it is really heavy on a hot day. However, in the winter this cream will literally save your life. I wont lie to you I dont always have the best habit of applying lotion or creams after showering. I like to get out and just be done with the whole thing. I HAVE THINGS TO DO HELLO! This is why I love the...

Pregnancy in Your 30's, Q's and A's with my Doctor

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Before I begin I want to say that this post is strictly based off my experience, and not my medical knowledge. I wanted to share some thoughts and opinions about what I was told the last time I visited my OBGYN. I know for some of my male readers this is not too interesting, so for that I'd say you can move along. I promise it wont hurt my feelings. The last Friday in April I had a scheduled appointment with my lady doctor. I was stoked to finally visit the doctor after about 3 years of no OBGYN related visits. Not that I thought there was anything wrong, but its nice to visit and check on things. Also, I was truly stoked because I just switched to Kaiser, and the last time I had Kaiser as my insurance I was not physically in the best place in my life. So the day begins as such, check in of course! Thanks to the affordable care act my preventative care visits are FREE!!! I'm telling you if this is not a reason to go, I dont know what is... I sit down and immediately get c...

This...That... and the Other The Struggle With Depression and Anxiety

Hi friends it has been awhile since my last post. I have been busy, and really not motivated to share anything with anyone that has any sort of value. I have to be very open with myself and others, because it is the most therapeutic. Honesty is the best policy, and if you really think about that saying, it truly is. Lets face it, if you're not honest with yourself first, then who is to say that you will be honest with others?  If I am to be completely honest with myself and those I love, it is time to come clean. Most of my close friends and family know that i have struggled with depression my whole life. After Sam died, I fell into a really low state with my controlled depression. So deep that I melted into an anxious mess, on top of the struggle with major depression. I never really associated the disorders with one another growing up, as I figured they were two completely different issues. Now obviously these two can be completely different in terms of how you react to them, ...

International Woman's Day

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Friends today is a significant day because it is a celebration of women. Strong women, smart women, caring women, and every woman in between. What does it mean to be a woman in today's society? Woman, being the mother, cares for the children, prepares the meals, cleans the house, etc. While the man, looked at as a male, goes to work, teaches his children the fundamentals of responsibilities, and manual labor. The man's role is to be the provider, and the back bone of the house. Why though, must most American families look at these roles in such a clear cut way? Why do many is western society believe that the only caring, nurturing role model in the house is a woman? My thoughts on this topic, well, it is because most woman from these types of families like being recognized for this role. Not only this, but most women were never taught that they could be anything different. Some of these women aspire to be the team mom, stay at home parent, and of course that is absolutely a...

The Goal is to be Successful, Not Stressful

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After listening to a TED Talks podcast today, I became very inspired to talk about something that is near and dear to my heart. Lets discuss goals and motivation. Sure many people have goals, and many people are successful at meeting these goals. I really believe the real struggle begins the time you meet the goals. The idea of meeting the goals but keeping motivated to strive for other, more extensive goals is the thing that is really arduous. For me, the goals were ones that took a lot of time, and patience to meet, and when I finally met them I was on top of the world. The real reason I believe, is the change you see in yourself, or others when you are successfully meeting said goals. First and foremost, a lot can be said for someone that sets goals, and stays motivated long enough to see results. Really a struggle in this part of goal making is actually seeing progress. For some it could be decreasing sugar, or increasing water. Small goals ultimately will help you achieve larg...

Valentine's Day

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Well we know this comes around every year, the dreadful Valentine's day blanket of "look what my babe got me", and "I'm so in love". Well I wouldn't say I'm a cynic, but I would say I believe that holiday's like these are so hurtful for friends, family and significant others. The reason I say this is because we put some many significant expectations on others today, more than any other day. We expect flowers, we expect cards and gifts. But what we're really saying is give me all the things that show me you love me so I can post it on social media. What we are really telling ourselves is based on what we get is how much your partner or family loves and appreciates you. Obviously we know that gifts and kind gestures are such a great way to let people know you care, but why do we limit this to one day? I know there are so many people asking the same question, but lets be real... It is a legitimate question. Why do we feel the need to limit our k...

Millennials and rambling

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As the true Millennial that I am, I feel as if were given bad reputation. I'd say its probably because of the millions of people that in deed give us that bad reputation. Unfortunately, I have to say it's rightfully so. We as millennials have a chance to change the narrative. There are so many new innovative things available to us now, than ever before. With the help of  social media we can change the platform to which people view the world. We can utilize these sites to help fight for injustice, animals, babies whatever your cause. But what I have seen lately, and correct me if I am wrong, is we use these to spread hate and bully others into what we believe. Have you ever heard of the phrase "You can catch more bee's with honey, than with vinegar". This has never been more true then it is now. I think what were forgetting is that in we believe that if we are aggressive, and vulgar we can persuade people into believe our truths. But if you look at legitimate thoug...

Museum of Death is it worth the awe?

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This past Saturday I got to experience something that I have been intrigued with since I found out about it. I wont let the suspense keep you any longer... Outside Museum of Death. Only photo I could take.  The Museum of Death, which is nestled in the bustling streets of Hollywood, CA has been a long time cult favorite of the city since 2000. According to Atlas Obscura, "The Museum of Death was originally founded in San Diego in 1995, however, in 2000 James Healy moved this location to sunny Hollywood, CA". I drove by this location when Alex took me on a date about a year in a half ago. I have attempted to actually get inside the museum like 10 times. All unsuccessful I might add. I just loved the look of these buildings.  Since the museum wants to keep their things safe and respected, you cannot take pictures within, you have to actually go inside to view the exhibits. This is my account of what I recall of the museum, however, everyone views things differently....

Hobbies

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Hi all! I am hoping whoever is out there reading is having a fantastic year so far. Currently I am trying to figure a balance in my life that will help me relieve stress. A lot of people use exercise as a way to reduce the stress. Of course in the beginning this is the only way I knew how to reduce stress. However, being an active member in the gym myself, this has no longer been a successful outlet for me. I exercise about 5 to 6 times a week. Sometimes I can only get to about 4 times, which kills my anxiety. (we will discuss that later). I use this a sustainable source for overall physical well being, but mentally I am a hot mess! With that being said my therapist, yes I see one and I am a firm believer that every gal should! Anyways my therapist suggests for me to find an outlet that will help me understand who I am. I take this as essentially finding a hobby. You could say that people find things they generally like to do that help get their minds off things life the stress of li...

2018 Rewards

There has definitely  been a buzz in the air about this new year new me in 2018. I think this is something I need to address on my own accord and how I feel about it.  So I will begin by saying people make changes the way they see fit in their lives, what makes the new year any different? What makes the new year a starting point? As I see it, people tend to think oh the holidays are here, it is time to let go and enjoy  myself. It is time for me to let myself do what I want, eat what I want and then the first of the year, I start back up. Why though? Why do we allow ourselves to get off the routine we stick to for the year? We work so hard to follow a plan throughout the year, but when the holidays come we put that same lifestyle back on the back burner . Is there a definite reason we do this or is it just so hard with the holiday sweet to keep a lifestyle?  I think for the most part, people still keep to their good habits food wise, we let ourselves indulge ....