No really a new me...
I was just thinking of how great it would be to have a blog! Well here I am apparently I had another thought years ago to create a blog so I will add onto this. Who would have thought!
So a little about me, again, I am currently working for a great University in Pomona, CA. I love my job, and I love my students. So there is me... well for my work picture! I hate it, but whatever, its for work. Hopefully nobody googles me! Tee Hee. Wait has anyone ever actually tried to google themselves? I just did and spent about 45 minutes looking at the pictures... Woah funny!
So where was I? Oh yes... Job, life, everything I can think of. I guess this blog is not as organized as it should be. But that is me, and if you need to know anything about me its the fact that I have a goldfish brain! So this time last year I was working on fixing myself and not focusing on others. I have come to a point in life where I feel that I am right where I should be. It feels weird, having never felt this feeling in my life, I can say I like it to an extent!
I have dedicated my time and energy to getting healthy and I have dropped 115 lbs. 115 lbs of lazy, sad, tired, just all around miserable human being. I am so happy with where I am and what I am doing in life. Speaking of new life, I have a boy friend!!! wooo!!! That is something new for me, since well Sam.
Dont get me wrong I miss Sam, and for those of you that dont know him, you will soon. That will take me awhile to write down. I have far too much to put on paper. In the short, Sam was my boyfriend in my earlier adulthood, well 18 - 19, but we grew up together so I have known him my while life. He died in 2008, and I have just been allowing myself to deal with that loss. Yes, it took me awhile. But that is another blog....Another day!
So this bf now, he is awesome! However, I am concerned that he is getting too comfortable too quick. I like the pursuit and I like to be pursued. He is on a kick where he dont really talk to me through out the day, but i know he thinks of me. I just need to figure out how to communicate my needs to him. I just dont know where to begin. Like, do I just tell him? What if he doesnt like what I am going to say? I mean he breaks up with me, but that is the thing. I dont want that, I feel like I have such strong feelings for him that I want to keep him for as long as I can.
I feel like I do love him, but I am scared to be the one to tell him first. Ugh this is why I liked being single for so long. I just dont know how to act, or what is acceptable. I hate feelings, like I hate the fact that I feel that he feels the same as me, but I dont want to be the first to say it. I am weird I guess, but I can tell you this is not anything that others havent gone through before. I just dont knwo how to go about it! ughh stressing me out for sure.
Well I need to get back to work. Just wanted to say hello and I haven't forgotten you. Also see below a new pic of me and my boo thang! I will return tomorrow.
So a little about me, again, I am currently working for a great University in Pomona, CA. I love my job, and I love my students. So there is me... well for my work picture! I hate it, but whatever, its for work. Hopefully nobody googles me! Tee Hee. Wait has anyone ever actually tried to google themselves? I just did and spent about 45 minutes looking at the pictures... Woah funny!
So where was I? Oh yes... Job, life, everything I can think of. I guess this blog is not as organized as it should be. But that is me, and if you need to know anything about me its the fact that I have a goldfish brain! So this time last year I was working on fixing myself and not focusing on others. I have come to a point in life where I feel that I am right where I should be. It feels weird, having never felt this feeling in my life, I can say I like it to an extent!
I have dedicated my time and energy to getting healthy and I have dropped 115 lbs. 115 lbs of lazy, sad, tired, just all around miserable human being. I am so happy with where I am and what I am doing in life. Speaking of new life, I have a boy friend!!! wooo!!! That is something new for me, since well Sam.
Dont get me wrong I miss Sam, and for those of you that dont know him, you will soon. That will take me awhile to write down. I have far too much to put on paper. In the short, Sam was my boyfriend in my earlier adulthood, well 18 - 19, but we grew up together so I have known him my while life. He died in 2008, and I have just been allowing myself to deal with that loss. Yes, it took me awhile. But that is another blog....Another day!
So this bf now, he is awesome! However, I am concerned that he is getting too comfortable too quick. I like the pursuit and I like to be pursued. He is on a kick where he dont really talk to me through out the day, but i know he thinks of me. I just need to figure out how to communicate my needs to him. I just dont know where to begin. Like, do I just tell him? What if he doesnt like what I am going to say? I mean he breaks up with me, but that is the thing. I dont want that, I feel like I have such strong feelings for him that I want to keep him for as long as I can.
I feel like I do love him, but I am scared to be the one to tell him first. Ugh this is why I liked being single for so long. I just dont know how to act, or what is acceptable. I hate feelings, like I hate the fact that I feel that he feels the same as me, but I dont want to be the first to say it. I am weird I guess, but I can tell you this is not anything that others havent gone through before. I just dont knwo how to go about it! ughh stressing me out for sure.
Well I need to get back to work. Just wanted to say hello and I haven't forgotten you. Also see below a new pic of me and my boo thang! I will return tomorrow.
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