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Imposter Syndrome

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  Hey now, you thought you'd never hear from me again I bet. Well... Here I am, still surviving and creating space in New York. I am finishing up my grad program at Columbia trying to find out what I will move on to next. Truthfully, I am so excited to begin reading for enjoyment again that I may just take some time off to fill my time with escaping into a book. I feel that through my time in grad school I have really blossomed into an adult. Not academically, but more so in how I handle situations with people. I have tried to learn to give more grace because I dont know what their situation is and I really can't ever know what someone is going through. I am eternally grateful for the opportunities I have had in life. Many of which, I worked hard for, but many that were given to me.  I am still here going through life feeling major imposter syndrome. There is one thing though that I know I got right, and that is my relationship with Alex and the family unit we have created. Gu...

Checking in with thoughts and other things

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It's been awhile, a long while actually. I logged on to see that I had several drafts during COVID. A lot has changed since then and going back to read the drafts really had me thinking. So much of my life during this time was spent inside chasing one issue after another. Trying to survive the pandemic and find some normalcy in what my life has become. I know this is not unique to me and so many people were not as fortunate as I was to get through this unscathed. For that, I am so thankful. A little catching up is in order at least to those that dont keep in touch with me.  I will begin catching you up on my insane move to NYC. Yea... We sold our house in California and decided that we would follow our dreams of living in the city that never sleeps. The drive here was ROUGH! We had both dogs in my little Honda Civic. We were fortunate enough that Alex's parents came with us because I think without them we would have had a more difficult time. We alternated having Molly drive wi...
I've been stuck in a rut for a long while now. But only recently has it truly affected my day to day life. I have not been really inclined to write anything for a long time now because I have been busy. Truly and honestly, I have had a really busy year. Alex and I got engaged, bought a house, I got a new job  and we even tied the knot. Truly this year has been one for the books, and I have not really had the time or desire to sit down and write about any of it. I was thinking that I would have so much to talk about regarding all the things that happened this year, but every time I sit down to actually write, I can never get the words out. I start something, then immediately get stuck. Quite frankly, it is annoying and if you were to look at the back end of this blog, you would see many "drafts" ones I've started that have different titles but no resolution. I begin and stop just as quickly as I start. I think the initial post of this one will help me catch up to m...

Before You Buy: Things I wish I Knew Before Buying a Home

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Well we have been in our new home for several weeks, and however stressful this ride has been, it has been one of the most fulfilling experiences of my life. I wanted to share with my friends the things that I wish I knew before I bought my first home. A little back story, Alex and I have been looking at homes, and by looking I mean we went to tour model homes. ( One of my most favorite things to do growing up ). But if you were to ask me if I was actively looking, I would have told you that we must be crazy to look for a new home while planning a wedding. We spend some Saturdays going to open houses in the area, but nonetheless, we were not putting in offers because that was ludicrous. Although I signed up for all the latest realty websites known to man, we just were not there yet. I have to admit, it was so much fun getting emails every morning about homes that we could afford, and even those we couldn't ( hey a girl can dream right ). Molly loves her new bed in her new hom...

Perfection is the biggest lie we tell ourselves

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Hello all! The whole point of this blog is to be straightforward, and really to get my thoughts out into the universe. I want to be as candid with people, but mostly myself. I have been MIA for a couple weeks. I''m here to explain myself, also I wanted to take some time to get back into the swing of things. Well first a foremost I got engaged! Honestly, it was the greatest moment I have ever experienced. Let me tell you why though as if the engagement was not enough, I realized how much my life has changed since I started devoting time to loving myself. I began this journey a couple years ago, with every intention on I am going to lose this weight and all my problems will disappear. Well... we all know how that goes. There I was, 116 lbs smaller than my heaviest weight, and still feeling like I was that 260ish pound girl. I had always believed that if I lost all this weight, I would find someone that loves me, and have my happily ever after. Honestly, I did it for the wrong...

Top 5: Face, Body and Beauty Edition

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Hey friends! I am looking at ways to lighten up my posts, and share things with people that read my posts. I would love to write deep things all the time, but sometimes I feel like I can be a bit overwhelming so this post is all about things I love, beauty things I love!!! I wanted to let you know that I have not been paid to talk about these topics, honestly, I love reviewing things and like to share my favorite things with those I love. So shall we begin? 5. CeraVe Moisturizing Cream - Honestly I dont know where to begin with this. I have had a love hate relationship with this product for a few years. Let me explain why... This product is so creamy, and thick that in the summer it is really heavy on a hot day. However, in the winter this cream will literally save your life. I wont lie to you I dont always have the best habit of applying lotion or creams after showering. I like to get out and just be done with the whole thing. I HAVE THINGS TO DO HELLO! This is why I love the...

Pregnancy in Your 30's, Q's and A's with my Doctor

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Before I begin I want to say that this post is strictly based off my experience, and not my medical knowledge. I wanted to share some thoughts and opinions about what I was told the last time I visited my OBGYN. I know for some of my male readers this is not too interesting, so for that I'd say you can move along. I promise it wont hurt my feelings. The last Friday in April I had a scheduled appointment with my lady doctor. I was stoked to finally visit the doctor after about 3 years of no OBGYN related visits. Not that I thought there was anything wrong, but its nice to visit and check on things. Also, I was truly stoked because I just switched to Kaiser, and the last time I had Kaiser as my insurance I was not physically in the best place in my life. So the day begins as such, check in of course! Thanks to the affordable care act my preventative care visits are FREE!!! I'm telling you if this is not a reason to go, I dont know what is... I sit down and immediately get c...